Apparently I Suck At Being Alone

…and did I mention that Tals resembles a freaky gremlin?!

Guys, I learned something about myself this weekend, and I’m pretty sure that I’m not proud of it: being alone is totally weird!

Let me back up and explain. You see, Will flew out to Jordan on Saturday morning as part of Backpacker’s “Editor’s Choice” trip. A few staff members or contributors are chosen every year to go on the EC trip, and this is the second year that Will has been fortunate enough to get asked to go. Last year they went to Tasmania and I was so insanely jealous of the photos that he brought back! This year, the trip is in an entirely different part of the world, and Will was so excited to check out the Middle East.

Photo Credit to Backpacker Magazine. If you subscribe, you’ve likely seen this photo of Will on last year’s trip to Tasmania. There are quite a few photos of him in recent months of the mag!

And did I mention how envious I am?! My parents and I had debated a brief trip to Petra when we visited Egypt in 2010, but in the end, we decided to spent our time in Egypt and save Jordan for another day. As of now, that day has yet to arrive so looks like Will is going to visit before me. I don’t know much about their trip, but I do know that they will conclude a four-day backpacking trip by hiking straight into Petra. Pretty flipping fantastic, right?!

Anyway, I took him to the airport Saturday morning so I’ve spent the past couple of nights solo (well, excluding Tals, of course!) Initially, I didn’t think much of it because I’m used to being alone. I mean, up until May, I had lived by myself for six years, right?

Turns out, things change! I got home from a bbq Saturday night and crawled into bed for an early night—like 9pm! Right away, I noticed how awkwardly big the bed felt!

Why was the house so quiet?

And what in the world was that weird shadow in the corner?!

Why do Tally’s eyes look so strange in the dark?

Now, I don’t mean to make this sound like I had a totally meltdown and cried myself to sleep because that absolutely isn’t the case. However, it was striking to me how much less I liked being alone compared to how I used to feel. In the past, I thrived on solo time and truly enjoyed living by myself. I still have these characteristics and Will always teases me about how I need my 30 minutes every morning where I drink my coffee by myself and speak to absolutely no one.


Apparently, I’ve learned to love living with this guy!


Any big kid realizations lately?

How was your weekend?



  • Reply Heidi @BananaBuzzbomb at

    Awwww. so cute. Whenever DH leaves I always appreciate the first day or so of “independence” but then I’m like, “Come back!” =)

    • Reply heather at

      It’s been 48 hours and I’m over it 🙂

  • Reply Alyssa at

    It’s funny how quickly you become accustomed to things! I feel like it doesn’t take long to get used to certain luxuries (like having a man around) and once you learn to love it, there’s no going back!

    • Reply heather at

      It really is, but it also made me feel like a big baby!

  • Reply Amy at

    So this is weird: My fiance works in the same office as all the Backpacker folks and on Friday he was complaining at how empty the office was since they are all away in Jordan. It sounds like an amazing trip and we were definitely lamenting how awesome it would be.

    • Reply heather at

      Ha, yeah, I’m totally envious of the trip! I briefly talked to him last night after they arrived at an Eco Lodge (before heading out on their 4 day trek) and it sounds amazing thus far!

  • Reply Miz at

    there is never a happy medium either 🙂
    I ROCK TOO HARD at being solo!

    • Reply heather at

      I used to think that was my problem and Will may say that it still is…until he reads this 😉

  • Reply Eric at

    I totally get this – Even when I am the one going away I am not a big fan. I am usually sharing my adventures with Sheila, and not having her there is so odd. The trip to the Rogue was especially hard because I could not even share things with her because we were totally out of cell phone range.

    We need an omni + family trip 🙂 total kick ass adventure style

    • Reply heather at

      YES! Will and I keep thinking that because in the year we’ve been together, we’ve each had wayyyyyy more trips apart then we have had together, and with both of our various careers in writing, it seems like it will be the norm. Plus, it sucks to experience such an amazing adventure and not have “that” person with you. Sigh 🙂

  • Reply Christy @My Dirt Road Anthem at

    You are so cute together! I love my alone time but 48 hours is too much alone time and the house is creepier when my hubs is gone too, but what a great trip for Will!

    • Reply heather at

      He doesn’t come back till next week so I’m curious to see if I settle in by then…or if it’s still just as weird!

  • Reply lynne @ lgsmash at

    i had the same realization soon after alex moved to denver!! we’d been long distance for 2.5 years so i was very surprised when he went on a business trip a few months after being here how strange (and quiet!) it was to be ‘home alone’ and to only talk to him on the phone…like had been the case for longer than we’d lived together! isn’t funny how quickly we humans adjust to a new ‘normal’? 🙂

    also – definitely jealous of his trip

    • Reply heather at

      SO TRUE! When I took him to the airport, we both immediately jumped back to last year when we were doing the distance thing and always driving to/from the airport. It seems so long ago yet not long enough!

  • Reply misszippy at

    Ok, put me in the jealous of Will category, too! How cool is that trip?

    I don’t mind being alone, in fact, I find I need that time. But I also am learning I’m a bit of an introvert and that other people draw their energy from being in the presence of others. Perhaps that is you?

    • Reply heather at

      I still definitely like my solo time and need it to recharge– I just don’t seem to put him in that category 🙂

  • Reply Kate at

    His trip sounds awesome! I love my alone time, but I’ve been with my husband for more than 13 years. You appreciate those solitary moments MUCH more as time passes 🙂

    • Reply heather at

      His trip does sound fantastic 🙂 I can’t wait to see all the photos!!

  • Reply Kayla at

    I totally feel ya. Although I do love my alone time, I wouldn’t have it any other way than to live with my love. He makes everything so much better! So glad you and Will found each other. 🙂

    • Reply heather at

      I’m pretty happy about that too 🙂

  • Reply Jessica@YouDidWhatWithYourWeiner at

    I first saw a photo of Petra in my art history class in college. I am in love with that place! I am jealous of Will too!

    I used to love being alone…or at least have no problem with it. That has changes some but I find it is the worst when my hubby is off doing something incredibly fun with out me. At least I have the wiener dogs to keep me company 🙂

    I am checking out all of the blogs on #TeamSierra and am blown away. I feel so privileged to be part of the team. I blog about dogs and hiking with dogs (“pet” blogger) but I am hoping to do more writing specifically about hiking with dogs.

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